Makes me smile

So long as the memory of certain beloved friends lives in my heart, I shall say that life is good.

HSI is probably the most inspirational experiences that I have gone through so far in my life. Anyone would be lucky to be granted the opportunity to take part in this phenomenal experience. The atmosphere here is so warming; everyone here is here because they want to be making this such a positive place to be! I have made sooo many friends and soo many memories that I doubt I will ever forget until I’m old and senile and can’t even remember that the dishes go in the kitchen not in the closet of my guest bedroom. I can’t pick a favorite memory I did way too much and laughed way too much to pick a favorite, one that I most likely won’t forget is the morning my roommate fell asleep standing up after she turned off her alarm. Her and I still laugh about that.

“If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go.” ― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Growth of someone is not in body but in mind. I honestly can’t look at myself or others the same way. Everyone, including myself is unique everyone has their own background, but their background good or bad doesn’t defined them. Causing me to want to or desire to reach out to more people just to create new friendships!!

In my classes I have learned so much! In my multimedia class it just deepened my love for photography and has really heightened my awareness of the stupidity of others post online. Once online always online! I also was more enlightened me on how stereo-typed females, males and other groups are due to the exploitation of others online.

In my science class I was able to deepen my knowledge on local poverty and malnutrition as well as understand the depth of world hunger.



I try to multitask, but I’ll be honest I suck at it. Even trying to hold multiple conversations at once are rather difficult, when I focus on one thing that’s what I want to do really well, but when introduced to a couple of tasked that need to be done well, one of them will be accomplished well and the other project will be sub-par. Such as trying to type notes up while listening to a lecture, the distraction of maybe typing the wrong letter or the wrong word as you are trying to tediously listen to the notes given by the teacher.  Honestly even though writing notes out are known to be much better because you are hearing it, writing it, and reading it I still have a hard time following in class. My mind can’t keep up with the teachers information while I am still trying to write down the last note she gave us.

Now-a-days with Facebook and texting multitasking can be dangerous it leads to the possibility of cyber bullying. People will post in the middle of class and others may not agree on that opinion causing a large domino effect of self hurt and bullying.


Mooks and midriff the thought of being perfect. In the female and male eye there is and mostly likely always will be the ideology of the perfect appearance to others. Now-a-days we look at photo-shopped magazines, actors and actresses that pay an insanely large amount of money just to keep in good shape, and when put  in commercials and photos it’s still not actually them. Society has created a fake image for young men and young females. Muscular and skinny, masculinity and famine. And this is all due the reality tv channles such as MTV.

In the future I feel that MTV should actually focus on real life occurances and apperances instead of focusing on what should be.

Online Selling Out

(i missed the first half of the video but of what i saw) I find it rediculas how implusive some people are, you have a 13 year old boy trying to sustain his family by sponsoring, but in doing this he is being compleltly vial and crude for his age and for the fact of being of the male gender. I find that selling out online is very wrong, once online alwasy online. Dont explote yourself and potentially ruin your future by being stupid on the computer.


Matthew 19:14 But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.”

Bad news is generally never taken well, especially when you feel like its hitting home. Life’s not fair; it never has been and frankly never will be. Things are not in our hand, yes God gave us free will but he also gave us life He and only He only has the right to take it. To many such as I watching someone you care about slowly slip away SUCKS.

When they asked Christ, “Should we pay taxes?” Christ responded with, “Give to Caesar what is Caesar’s but give to God, what is God’s.” God gave us life and someday we must all give it back to him. It is our faith and belief in being moral and good that allows us to be accepted. Otherwise, that is why they say, there will be hell to pay.

Recently I was given so tragic news, my inspiration, the reason why I feel the desire to help, and the reason why something I never thought about become a passion. Dallin Gunter, my 8 year old neighbor was diagnosed with two different forms of brain cancer. It was believed to clear up but this past Sunday he had and episode. His family as well as many others, such as my family, was informed that he merely had up to 2 months at best. Knowing the family before he was born is a blur I was really young but I remember the fun. Honestly he felt like another little brother.

I remember my mother first telling me that he was diagnosed with the cancers, I was devastated, but not as much as I was when I saw him after his first procedure. I went to my mom and literally bawled I remember mumbling it’s not fair, it’s so hard to see him like this. Days after I realized I’m just an observe not a direct family member, imagine how they feel. But I also felt so incredibly petty, I wanted to help but there was literally nothing I could do; I am not educated, I am young, and not family. That’s when I knew what I AM going to pursue being a successful doctor in pediatric oncology, I am going to do something so I can help, so no one else has to suffer this much. Even with this occurring tragedy I am even more persuaded to more than full heartedly become an extremely successful doctor in pediatric oncology.

Yes, I hurt and that’s because I don’t want to watch someone so young so amazing suffer, and lose something so precious, life.

Imagine this: tall but not too tall, blond hair with a little long then shoulder length, skinny but not anorexic, muscular not creepy though, blue eyes, and flawless skin. This too many young teenagers are almost the perfect girl, but what dangers does this bring to reality when a teenage girl knows she doesn’t look like this but tries.

Every day in America more and more teenagers of both genders are losing there since of self-respect due to the idolized fantasy of what everyone should look like.

I will admit i am as well as fault of a low self-esteem when analyzing what i believe i should or what i want to look like.

I see the blond hair, and I’m like I can bleach mine. I see the skinniness and I’m like I can work out more. I look at amazing make up tips and I’m like I can do that. The issue is that a large majority of others feel the same way, but they go to much further such as starving them self’s, wearing a pound of makeup, and a multitude of many other dangerous procedure that “kill” one’s body.

Around the 17th century only male wore make up, and that was due to the extracurricular activities that they participated in such as acting. Eventually the male’s minds slowly evolved and thought that’s not wear this, and now is a LARGE quantity of females that wear makeup. To solve the issue with societal standards, why not just stop wearing makeup. In the long run if everyone did it then it would be considered weird to even wear it. I’m not saying as a whole it will be as simple as removing make up products but just simply changing/opening up one’s mind to accepting who we are for who we really are not who we think others think we should be.